Title: Coming Out
Author: Lila Rose
Series: Hawks MC Series, Book 4.5
Living a lie, Matthew ‘Mattie’ Alexander is exhausted. It’s not easy to keep up the pretence, the deceit, but it’s safer. Coming out to a world who so easily hate takes a courage he’s yet to find, so he pretends – pretends to be into women – pretends to love being a part of the university’s football team. It keeps him safe, hidden.
Until he meets Julian.
From the moment they first meet, Mattie knows life is about to change. He’s yet to determine if it is for the better or worse.
Living life through laughter, Julian is lonely. Without the jokes, the humour, he would be living on the edge of depression. Succumbing to his controlling father’s demands, Julian finds no joy in the path laid out before him.
Until he meets Mattie.
As soon as they cross paths, Mattie has the power to drive Julian’s man parts crazy with lust. But can lust be enough to help Mattie out of the closet, and guide Julian into a happier place?
Limits will be pushed. Rules will be broken. But it’s only together, that they will have the strength to overpower fear, fear of themselves and fear of others. Just how far are they willing to go in the aim of coming out?
It’s interesting the ways that people use humor and outlandish comments to hide the scars of their past and present. Meeting Julian in book one of Lila Rose’s Hawks Motorcycle Club series, I don’t think any reader would perceive his backstory to be what it is because Julian is a what you see is what you get kind of person/character. But the more I thought about him after reading Coming Out, Julian’s humorous and flirty mask fits his persona; it allowed him to cope at the time and then it became who he was, and I couldn’t love him more;)
Mattie has definitely been the strong and silent type in the previous stories, so I was glad to get inside his head and understand him better. For four years, he pretended to be someone he wasn’t, and he hated himself and those prejudicial bastards around him every minute of that time. But Mattie just needed the right guy to come along to accept him and show him where he belongs, and Julian is definitely that person. Lila Rose did a great job of illustrating Mattie’s fears and insecurities and providing the reasons behind his decision to stay in the closet so long and go along with the actions and attitudes of his teammates.
This is exactly what I wanted for Mattie and Julian’s story…although I have to admit, I never picked up on their age difference. I love that Julian never swayed from being who he is and that he helped Mattie feel safe enough to be himself as well. Mattie is a quiet hero, but I guess that makes sense since Julian talks enough for both of them;)
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Excerpt
Once Mattie turned his glacial glare back to me, I demanded, “What are you doing?”
His head jutted back. “What do you mean?”
Melissa stood beside me. I glanced at her to see she was smiling as she said, “He means, why did you interrupt their little…tomfoolery?”
He opened his mouth, closed it, only to open it again to say, “He shouldn’t want to…get with married men.”
“Why do you care what I do?”
He blanched, took a step back and closed his eyes. Once he took a deep breath, he opened them, his eyes warmer. “I shouldn’t,” he uttered.
He shouldn’t what? Care?
My heart thumped, smiled and screamed: he cared.
Why?
The man in front of me confused me more than men who wore sandals and socks together.
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Lila Rose has moved about Australia a lot of her life. Currently, she lives in country Victoria Australia with her husband and two children.
Lila is addicted to coffee, chocolate and reading.
She also loves to write humorous romance. For all novels that come from her weird brain, check out her website!
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